Moving Up from the Abyss

Yesterday was an extremely down day for me. First, I began thinking about the phone call from my brother letting me know that Dad had died, on my way to work. So I cried halfway there. I thought about my blogpost much of the day... and about how I could move beyond the guilt.

When I got home, it all turned around. I got off a little bit early to transport the boys all around. One son went and did an activity that he really wanted to do, the other 2 made homemade rootbeer. We bought all the bottles, caps, and supplies and set up an assembly line. We should know in about 10 days how that turned out! I talked with them a bit, and it made me realize that they harbor no ill will... their life has been great. I struggled through that marriage, and I protected them. So it seems that it's just a matter of working through my own crap now (isn't that how it usually is?).

Today I'm taking some more leaps of faith and contacting select sites about advertising my journals on there. Life is good, sometimes I just have to remind myself!

Mental Health

I've always been able to have a thick outer shell. I would let those close to me in, but that's about it. These days my emotions are right on the surface, ready to bubble over at any minute. I rage... I cry... I am out of control.

It's been 3 months since Dad died. In that 3 months, I've gotten divorced, moved, worked tons of hours a week, worked on Etsy, and so much more... I can't believe it's been 3 months.

Today or tomorrow (depending on some factors at work), I'm taking a mental health day. I need some time. I'm going to the woods. Alone. And I am going to see what shape I am mentally after a bit. I wish I had the luxury of time and could go meditate on a mountaintop for a week... but I don't. So, I'll start with this.

What do you do for your mental health?