Fight for It

I've thought alot about yesterday's post, and yes, I know that regardless of the diagnosis, there's always hope. I was just writing about the attitude I took to it. Receiving the diagnosis of MS hit me hard because I watched my mom deteriorate.

I've done a lot of research, and know there are at least 7 different types of MS. Each of them with varied results. My brain was telling me not to give up, but my heart accepted death as the fate. Many reasons for that.

If I were to receive the diagnosis today, after as far as I've come, I don't think I'd give up. I think I would begin some sort of treatment immediately and fight it like a madwoman. What's different? Age. Wisdom. Many life lessons. And the fact that I have built a life worth fighting for. I have created beauty and joy. And love. Much love.

If you were to receive a dire diagnosis, what would sustain you? What have you surrounded yourself with that would be worth fighting for? It's never too late to build the life you want.

Time to Rally

Sorry for my absence yesterday. I was fighting a migraine and felt very under the weather. I still trudged through work, but it was a difficult day. Today I'm feeling a little better...

This past weekend, I watched my boys ride at Washougal MX Park, in Washougal, Washington. It is one of their favorite tracks to ride at. It was a beautiful, sunny day, but the track was extremely muddy. Quite the challenge for them! They got frustrated, they almost gave up... then they rallied and finished off strong. Awesome to watch!

Inspired by my teenage sons... I realize that I also must rally. It's time to beat this downtrodden feeling the migraine left me with! Today I will mail orders out, I will edit some new photos and list them. I will work extremely hard and go to bed exhausted. And hopefully in there somewhere, I will connect with those amazing people in my life... because really, they make it all worthwhile.

Using all my Tools

This next week my best friend will be gone on a business trip. I will be filling my time with lots of activity to keep the sadness away. I've also noticed on the rainy, dreary days, depression has been lurking. That's a first for me. But, since I'm in the Pacific Northwest, our rainy season lasts for months and months. Thankfully it's not fully here yet. However, I do have a SAD light that was given to me years ago. I think I will most likely start using that now.

Not sure what is going on with my body lately, for this all to be affecting me, but I am not just going to accept it. I will be actively working towards my happiness and well-being!

I've been talking to an old friend from high school days... I was so depressed during those years. I have not had to deal with it in forever though... I'm very determined not to let it win! I have no desire to be miserable...

So today after work, I go buy a bunch of supplies. Keeping busy starts with adding new items to my shop!