A Pledge

Yesterday almost held more challenges than I could handle. I struggled through it, felt like I was swimming upstream, exhausted and on the verge of drowning. My best friend and soul sister tried to help me up out of my own personal muck and I didn't even attempt to pull myself out using the rope she was throwing me. Not very much like me. Not at all.

Today I'm making a pledge to hold my head above water at all costs. Maybe I'll have to totally relax and float instead of struggling for a time. Maybe I'll have to grab onto that roap. Whatever it takes today. Whatever it takes, that is my pledge.

Time For R&R

I have been really challenged at work lately. Struggling through, seeing a lot of negative. Yesterday though I tried something. I had a mantra "I am thankful to have a job" and I repeated it throughout the day. It made the negative much less effective against me. I became impervious. I will try it today, tweaking the mantra as needed. It's been a long week. I'm tired, and I am so looking forward to a 3 day weekend.

I took the evening off from writing on Tuesday. Gave myself a break. Tried to get back to it yesterday, but really couldn't get into the groove. It didn't help that I wasn't feeling 100% healthwise, but hopefully tonight I can get right back on that horse.

I have so many plans... so many upcoming goals. This weekend will be used to refresh and recharge.

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Building

I feel more and more that I am building the life I want. I'm working towards the day to day that I want. I am surprised, much of the time, at how smooth a transition everything is.

However, right now I'm struggling. Struggling with "I-want-what-I-want-and-I-want-it-NOW". I struggle with patience, as you all know. I am working on it. And it is definitely work. Very hard work for me.

I have decided the class will begin very shortly after the 4th of July Holiday. Please email if you'd like more details (I can tell you what I'm pretty sure of so far), but I'm having a few problems with the hosting site, so I'm still ironing out a few things. And no-one wants to be committed to a brand new class right before a major holiday (assuming you are in the U.S.). My email is robynsart@live.com

So, I will keep building this life I want. And I will try to be patient. I will try to make my transitions gracefully. Do any of you have any advice for me on that?

Breathing, Breathing, Breathing

This photo was taken of our favorite park in Portland. It's right in the middle of downtown and it's so much fun. The boys can climb forever on all of the different levels. And there are at least 3 places where they can stand behind waterfalls. It makes for such an enjoyable afternoon! And it's a people-watching heaven!

I've been struggling a lot lately. Struggling with trying to be superwoman. Struggling at work, at home. I get frustrated at work (due to a LOT of different factors, but one is the frustration of boredom), then I bring the frustration home. And by the time I get home, I'm exhausted and there's so much to do! I'm trying to remember to breathe. And I am trying to not be a sponge for negativity. That is a constant struggle with me.

One day at a time... one breath at a time...