Figuring it all out

I've spent days and days now being completely exhausted. Exhaustion is not fun, but I can handle that. A couple of days ago, I started feeling like I hit a brick wall. I was on the verge of tears pretty constantly, and I just felt like jumping off a bridge. Not literally. That's what was strange. Part of me felt like all that, the other part was still analyzing and trying to figure out what was going on. I knew something just was not right.

Within the last year, I went on a medication for chronic headaches. The doctor and I had figured out that I've had daily headaches for at least the past 15 years. So... I went on this med, I took the pills every night, and the headaches went away after the first two weeks. Eight months or so later, a couple of weeks ago, I ran out of them on a Friday and forgot to pick up my refill. My pharmacy is closed on the weekends.

So... by Monday I realized that my headaches were not back, even though I had stopped taking my headache pills. So I decided to not pick up the refill. Yep, I took myself off of it. And, though I was using it for chronic pain, it's original intended purpose was for depression. So this week, it's all out of my system and I hit a brick wall.

As long as I know the answer, I'm ok... I went to the pharmacy, refilled it, and began taking it again last night. I should have it fully in my system by Monday. In the meantime, I have an understanding of why I feel weepy. And people around me understand, so it's alright.

The picture I chose for today is one taken by dad. His photos always remind me to look for the beauty in life. I'll be back on track here real soon, and I hope to take some gorgeous pictures this weekend!