So...

I returned to the specialist yesterday. My nodule has not grown, therefore, he said it cannot be the cause for my pain. He said it is not 'remarkable'. His theory is that all of my pain is from acid reflux. He said all of my symptoms point to that. I got a prescription, and I am willing to try it.

Honestly, I'm not convinced. But I am willing to try. If this is not relieved within 2 weeks, however, I will make an appointment with another doctor. I've never had a problem with acid reflux before, so hey, maybe it is what's going on. We will hope.

I'm also considering many different alternative routes. A friend of mine here goes to a naturopath, and he's covered by my insurance. Also, I will be looking into specific meditations, more reiki, etc.

I did not go in yesterday in hopes of him scheduling a thyroidectomy and letting it go at that. But I also did not go in thinking we would be 'trying' something altogether different. He did tell me that if this Rx does not work, I may need to see an ear, nose, and throat specialist to figure out what's going on in there.

I was venting to a dear friend last night. And I was telling him how it had affected me. How I was unable to communicate. And I got so angry. Not like me. I don't like relying on others, and I do not like not knowing what's going on inside.

As I typed that, something clicked. I need to go inside. It's MY body. I need to meditate, journal, whatever it takes, then present my case to whomever. Or perhaps I won't have to... possibly it's healing I can do myself. I will meditate on this throughout the day.